The Murder Building

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Originally posted on February 19, 2012 

 

When I visited a patient in my caseload that lived in an “unsafe” part of the city, I went in the morning. Right after the pimps and drug dealers had called it a night and before the shop keepers pulled up the bars over the store windows and the women came out to sweep the sidewalk litter into the streets.

One day Pearl, the social worker, asked to come with me to see a patient. She had a meeting in the morning so we left after lunch against my better judgment. If I were going to go to an iffy part of the city, this was the last place I would want to visit. The Chicago Tribune ran a story a few weeks previously about the “Murder Building.” I knew by the address it was next door to my patient’s apartment.

Everyone knows it simply as “the murder building.“

“They call it `the murder building` because people have been known to go into that building and not come out,“ said one young man standing on a nearby street. “You got to stay away from that place. Things go on in them halls you don`t want to see.“

What does that say about the neighborhood we drove through and the scattering of young men gathered on the stoops, some leaning against the parked cars, all seeming to be without a sense of purpose? I felt their eyes following us.

My patient lived on the second floor of a three story apartment building with his common law wife and various other relatives. The front door was locked and since there wasn’t a bell, I had to stand under the window and yell the patient’s name. The patient’s wife would come to the window before she sent one of the grandchildren down to let me in. This was before cell phones.

I dreaded leaving the safety of the car. Did any of the men think we carried drugs? I scooted out and quickly grabbed my nursing bag from the trunk along with a white bathroom scale. The patient was on tube feedings. It remained unclear if his wife was able to manage the procedure and give the feedings on schedule. I was monitoring his weight as evidence of success.

When Pearl and I completed our visit, we took quick, long steps to the car, avoiding eye contact with anyone near-by. As I stuffed my bag and scale into the trunk, I felt someone tap me on the shoulder. I waited for the command to hand over my nursing bag. Instead a soft voice asked, “Before you put that scale away, would you weigh me?”

I turned to see an older man with short gray whiskers on his chin and a pleasant smile. He moved aside as I slammed the trunk closed and carried the scale to the sidewalk. He took his shoes off and stepped on the scale. “I can’t see the numbers,” he said. I read them off to him, he stepped down, retrieved his shoes and said, “thank you.” Behind him stood a young man with dreadlocks. “Can I get weighed too?” He slipped out of his high tops. I called out his weight and he left with a “thank you.”

Behind him a line of men snaked along the sidewalk. Pearl emerged from the car and began joking with the men, young and old, as they waited their turn at the scale.

Back in the car, the scale packed away in the trunk, Pearl and I drove to the corner. As we pasted the Murder Building, ominous and frightening with smashed windows and debris scattered around its foundation, I realized a building doesn’t define a neighborhood.

The Murder Building

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When I visited a patient in my caseload that lived in an “unsafe” part of the city, I went in the morning. Right after the pimps and drug dealers had called it a night and before the shop keepers pulled up the bars over the store windows and the women came out to sweep the sidewalk litter into the streets.

One day Pearl, the social worker, asked to come with me to see a patient. She had a meeting in the morning so we left after lunch against my better judgment.  If I were going to go to an iffy part of the city, this was the last place I would want to visit. The Chicago Tribune ran a story a few weeks previously about the  “Murder Building.” I knew by the address it was next door to my patient’s apartment.

Everyone knows it simply as “the murder building.“

“They call it `the murder building` because people have been known to go into that building and not come out,“ said one young man standing on a nearby street. “You got to stay away from that place. Things go on in them halls you don`t want to see.“

What does that say about the neighborhood we drove through and the scattering of young men gathered on the stoops, some leaning against the parked cars, all seeming to be without a sense of purpose? I felt their eyes following us.

My patient lived on the second floor with his common law wife and various other relatives. The front door was locked and since there wasn’t a bell, I had to stand under the window and yell the patient’s name. The patient’s wife would come to the window before she sent one of the grandchildren down to let me in. This was before cell phones.

I dreaded leaving the safety of the car. Did any of the men think we carried drugs? I scooted out and quickly grabbed my nursing bag from the trunk along with a white bathroom scale. The patient was on tube feedings. It remained unclear if his wife was able to manage the procedure and give the feedings on schedule. I was monitoring his weight as evidence of success.

When Pearl and I completed our visit, we took quick, long steps to the car, avoiding eye contact with anyone near-by. As I stuffed my bag and scale into the trunk, I felt someone tap me on the shoulder. I waited for the command to hand over my nursing bag. Instead a soft voice asked, “Before you put that scale away, would you weigh me?”

I turned to see an older man with short gray whiskers on his chin and a pleasant smile. He moved aside as I slammed the trunk closed and carried the scale to the sidewalk. He took his shoes off and stepped on the scale. “I can’t see the numbers,” he said. I read them off to him, he stepped down, retrieved his shoes and said, “thank you.” Behind him stood a young man with dreadlocks. “Can I get weighed too?” He slipped out of his high tops. I called out his weight and he left with a “thank you.”

Behind him a line of men snaked along the sidewalk. Pearl emerged from the car and began joking with the men, young and old, as they waited their turn at the scale.

Back in the car, the scale packed away in the trunk, Pearl and I drove to the corner. As we pasted the Murder Building, ominous and frightening with smashed windows and debris scattered around its foundation, I realized a building doesn’t define a neighborhood.

Unsolved Mystery?

This happened long ago. I worked for a hospital-based home care program. We, nurse practitioners, received referrals from physicians who had exhausted all options to prolong the patients’ life. We visited the patient in his home and helped the family care for him until death. Traditional hospice services were not an option as yet.

My patient was in his 60’s or 70’s and had a ditzy wife. Just like Edith Bunker on the old All in the Family T.V. show. She looked like Edith with dark hair, a whiney voice and hands that kept flying in the air as she talked. Edith and I sat in the corner of the living room with its high ceilings, dark woodwork and antiquated furnishings talking about her husband. I think he had lung cancer. I can see him wandering around in the turn-of-the-century apartment, seemingly unaware of his wife and me. While Edith jabbered on, I thought about how much information I should give her. Could she handle her husband dying at home? Thankfully, time was on my side. Her husband didn’t look close to death. I could parse out information slowly.

I began by telling her about our program, giving her our twenty-four hour phone number. I would make another visit soon and go into the dying process in more depth and review potential problems. She seemed so scattered, but she cried occasionally giving me the feeling she realized the gravity of her husband’s condition.

At the end of my visit, Edith walked me to the hallway outside the apartment. For some reason, as I perched on the top stair, I told her to pick out a funeral home. “You’ll have to do this eventually. Call them and tell them your husband is on our program and our doctors will sign the death certificate.” Maybe I thought it would give her something to do before I made a follow-up visit.

Before I made that visit, I received a message from the funeral home that Edith’s husband had died over the weekend and that a service had been held just for the family.

A few days later, I made the mandatory bereavement visit. Edith’s daughter and her husband were with Edith in the kitchen. The son-in-law, GI Joe crew cut and heavy shoulders, stood by the sink washing dishes. The daughter, a replica of her mother, but with some extra padding, sat on one side of Edith with a box of thank you notes in front of her. The couple came from out of state and would stay only for a few more days. When Edith introduced them, they nodded without smiling as if I were a diversion they hoped would soon leave. While I sat at the table talking with Edith I could feel their ears on high alert. Was the son-in-law washing the same dish over and over again? I was distracted by the tension I felt in the room while Edith babbled on.

While I drove back to the hospital, I replayed Edith’s words. I heard her squeaky voice tell me her daughter and son-in-law drove a long distance from out-of-state. “But,” she said, “As tired as they were, they thought of me.” Did I notice her daughter’s back suddenly straighten up?  “My daughter said I needed a break. ‘Let’s go and get your hair done,’ she told me.” Edith patted her head full of tight curls reinforced with a heavy application of hair spray. Her smile showed she basked in the attention they had showered on her. She left for the beauty salon with her daughter while her son-in-law stayed to watch over her husband. “When we came back,” she said, tears flowing down her cheeks, “my husband was dead.”

I had other patients to see that day and quickly put the visit out of my mind.

Over the years I have thought about that bereavement visit. I felt so lucky I was distracted and didn’t register the implication of those words: alone with son-in-law and dead when wife returns. I didn’t think the patient was anywhere near death when I first saw him. Sure he could have had any number of problems that would cause system failure and death. However, if I never mentioned contacting the funeral home, Edith would have had to call 911 after her husband died. Without enrollment in our agency, a sudden death in the home would necessitate an autopsy. I would have no grounds for suspicion if the autopsy showed death from natural causes. But there was no autopsy. So I continue to exercise my vivid imagination and rehash possible scenarios. In one, I see Edith’s daughter and her husband nod to each other as the daughter takes her mother out of the house. The son-in-law waits a few minutes after they leave. He walks into the bedroom where Edith’s husband sleeps, takes the extra pillow off the bed, and presses it over the man’s face bearing down with this strong arms until he is sure his father-in-law is no longer breathing. After carefully replacing the pillow on the bed, he pulls a pack of Marlboro’s from the front pocket of his khaki’s. He ambles into the living room, settles into an overstuffed chair, lights up and waits for his wife and her mother to return.

I’ll never know what really happened

Not Guilty

On my last post, I speculated that Betty, the wife of one of my patients, Mr. G, might have been plotting to do him in. Now my friend, co-worker at the time, Jane Van De Velde, writes that Mr. G was admitted to the hospital because his hemoglobin was very low and he died there. “So it turns out Betty was blameless.”

For twenty years I thought of Betty as a scheming, conniving and murderous wife. How interesting to find out that my suspicions have been unfounded. Sorry to let this one go. But I do have another patient I believe might have had an untimely death.

I’ll tell you about him on my next post.